Kylie Jenner covers Interview Magazine. The 18-year-old shows off her bottom in backless latex pants for the new shoot for the magazine’s December/January 2016 issue, and shares she suffers from anxiety.
Here’s a few questions she answered from the lengthy interview.
Interview Magazine: I’m curious about something you said recently, about experimenting with your looks as a way to figure out who you are, who you want to be. I certainly identify with that search for identity. When did your experimenting begin?
Kylie Jenner: Honestly, what I think set everything off is when I cut my hair off when I was 16 and dyed it blue. After that, I just felt so free and wanted to experiment with my look. I thought I knew who I was and what I wanted to look like, but then once I did that, I was like, “Whoa, there’s a world of difference.” I just felt like I could be whoever I wanted to be, and I’m all about, like, experimenting. I’m still so young, so I’m just having fun.
Interview Magazine: And do the changes come with different personalities? Are they different characters, different Kylies with each look?
Kylie Jenner: No, it’s all physical. I’m always the same person.
Interview Magazine: There’s nothing you would change about yourself, like if you had some magic spell?
Kylie Jenner: No, not right now.
Interview Magazine: Is there anything you would wish for if you could use that magic the other way around? I mean, a lot of people might think of you as the girl who has everything. What would you wish for if you could have anything?
Kylie Jenner: What I think is so amazing about having everything, and feeling like I have everything, is that I don’t really find happiness within materialistic things. Like, it’s cool if I can buy myself a new car, and I think it’s amazing for a week, but then the thrill is over, and I’m like, “Oh, so I guess that wasn’t really happiness.” I’ve realized through the years that I just find happiness in other things, whether it’s my dogs or my friends or, like, looking at the sunset. So if I were to wish for something else, it would just to be happy all the time, to have a superpower of not letting things affect me, and to be true to who I am, always.
Interview Magazine: Do you have some sort of practice, some sort of philosophy that can help you get there? I wish I did. How can we always stay in touch with that happiness, or is it that it comes along and you have to appreciate it when it does, like a sunset?
Kylie Jenner: I feel like it is exactly like that. It comes along and you just have to appreciate it. But I always just try to stay sane and not read comments. It’s hard though. You get interested. I’m young and I’m a girl, so, when I post something, I want to see what people are saying or what they think of my photos. I’ve found it better if you don’t read anything and you just always stay off that track. I’m just trying to not lose myself through this process, because I feel like I’ve already lost parts of me, like, my youth.
Interview Magazine: You do feel like you missed out on a lot of stuff?
Kylie Jenner: I do. I feel like I’m going to look back and be like, “Damn, I wish I could’ve just been a kid and done normal teenage stuff that my friends get to do.” But it also is a blessing, and I’ve done so many things that most 35-year-old women still haven’t done. You can look at anything glass-half-full or whatever. Like, yesterday I realized that I’m 18, I’m a female, and I have accomplished so much. I live in a beautiful home and I work really hard, so I’m just grateful.
Interview Magazine: Well, here we are talking about how you’re experimenting to try to find yourself—and I don’t mean just you, I think we all are—and then here is this thing where you can’t really color too far outside of the lines, right? It’s like steering a really, really big ship. You can’t just make quick turns; there’s a whole process to what you’re posting. Do you feel limited by that, or is the platform itself totally worth it?
Kylie Jenner: I feel limited in some ways because I have such young fans. But I’m okay with that; I do everything I want to do.
Interview Magazine: How did you come to your anti-bullying Instagram campaign, #IAmMoreThan?
Kylie Jenner: I feel like if I came out and just told my story about bullying, people wouldn’t have sympathy—and I’m totally okay with that, because people don’t need to understand; they just think I’m not a normal person and live this magical life. But I wanted to give other people who have been bullied, and who overcame it to do something amazing, the opportunity to use my platform to bring awareness, to inspire people.
Interview Magazine: Well, I want to hear your story. You were bullied?
Kylie Jenner: Yeah, pretty much ever since I was 9, since the show started, there’s been so much bullying towards me. Like, every single day I see something negative about me. And it’s just completely torn me apart. I feel like I’ve lost so many amazing traits because I’ve listened to stupid people, ignorant people who are bullies.
Interview Magazine: Was it in person or online?
Kylie Jenner: It was in person, too. Just friends growing up. We were all young, and I always felt like people weren’t friends with me for the right reasons, and they would be like, “You know everyone is just friends with you because you’re famous,” or just weird stuff. I had a lot of friend issues throughout the years. That took a toll, and now I have two really great best friends that are the only people I hang out with. I keep a close circle. But it doesn’t affect me anymore; I’m totally fine with it. It’s just when you’re young, like 9, 10. It’s just confusing and you don’t know why people are saying mean things about you.
Interview Magazine: I imagine that your family was in a good position to be helpful, then and now. How has your relationship to your family changed recently, as you’ve come into your own?
Kylie Jenner: I feel like people are just paying more attention to me. Kendall and I were really branded together, and we wanted to do everything together, and we were like a team. And then Kendall started doing modeling, and that was her thing, and then I started doing my own thing. I just really want to be a businesswoman. The app was really my thing, and I worked really hard on it. And now I’m coming out with a lip kit and I’m just trying to do a lot of things on my own, so I feel like people are starting to recognize me as an individual.
Interview Magazine: Do you have a secret interior world? Is there a whole side of you that we don’t know about?
Kylie Jenner: [laughs] There is absolutely a side of me that people don’t know. I’m not myself on Snapchat or Instagram. That’s totally not me. I’m way flashier on Instagram and Snapchat, because I feel like that’s what people want to see and that’s what I’ve always done, so I’m not going to stop. People want to see my cars and my purses. People love fashion. But that’s so not me.
Interview Magazine: And who is the real you? If you didn’t have to feed those timelines, what would you rather be doing?
Kylie Jenner: I would probably just never dress up. I would never wear makeup, because I honestly hate wearing makeup. Lately, I’ve just been so over it. I feel like I’m way too young to wear such heavy makeup all the time. It’s just bad for your skin, but I’m always doing photo shoots or red carpets and events, so I just obviously want to look good. And I don’t know, I like hiking. I used to do a lot of hiking when I wasn’t as busy. I had a lot of anxiety when I was younger, so I would just run to this hill path in the back of my mom’s house and listen to Jack Johnson. I would listen to Jack Johnson and stare at the sky until my anxiety went away. When I was 16, I was always outside. We always watched the sunset, the group that I was friends with.
Interview Magazine: If you could do whatever you want, what would that be like?
Kylie Jenner: If I could do whatever I wanted, I would have a successful makeup line, and I would want to hopefully start more businesses, and just be, like, a businesswoman. And then, hopefully, I’ll go off the map. When I’m, like, 30, I want to go off the map, have a family, and live in Malibu with a farm, and just raise my own chickens. [Wallace laughs] My next goal for 2016 is to learn how to garden.
Interview Magazine: Are you good with money? Does that part of business excite you?
Kylie Jenner: No.
Interview Magazine: [laughs] Well, there are people for that. You’re 18 right now, right? Are you prepping for college?
Kylie Jenner: I’m not going to college. I have done everything to prepare for college, so if I wanted to in the future, I could go at any time. But I’m not planning on going anytime soon. [voice heard in the background] Kim just said, “Good girl!”
Interview Magazine: Does anything keep you up? Do you have anxiety?
Kylie Jenner: I wake up every morning with the worst anxiety. I don’t know why.
Interview Magazine: Oh, G_d—really?
Kylie Jenner: I have, like, a problem. [laughs] I wake up every morning at, like, seven or eight because I think that there’s a bad story about me, and I have to check. My worst fear is waking up and finding something bad about me on the internet.
Interview Magazine: Have you ever gone a day without checking anything?
Kylie Jenner: No. I deleted everything off of my phone for the night, and it was nice, but I don’t want to, like, restrain myself.
Interview Magazine: If you could have any superpower, what would it be?
Kylie Jenner: Maybe to be invisible, so I can stalk people and see what people do when I’m not there.
Interview Magazine: What in the world are you most grateful for?
Kylie Jenner: Probably my family, because I feel like I would never be able to do this by myself.
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